Bravery = Stupidity

I never thought that I'd look at a plasma bolted gun and find its barrel appealing. But that day that I told Edmond how I felt, a sense of complete and utter idiomatic patheticness fell over me. What was I thinking??? I'll admit that I was rather blunt about it, I just came out and said it.

"I'm pretty obvious about the way I feel about people. I bet you already know, but I like you. And we dont have to worry about it right now, we can totally forget this conversation if you want, but I was wondering if you liked me back." He didnt really say anything, in fact, he nearly immediately changed the subject. But he didn't change the subject like he was mad at me or like he was even saying no. We just immediately got off track, and I went with him.

"So I guess... We're forgetting this conversation?" I asked tentatively.

"For now." He said reassuringly. Like, we were going to talk about this later, just not at the moment. And I was alright with that. It wasn't a flat out NO, and that was pretty good... Considering.

Out here we have a system of communication called "Talkie Comm Links", which is somewhat like bluetooth but every person in the world has it installed by the time they are 12. Its a small chip in the side of your neck that hooks into your vision and allows you to have facial recognition with anyone you see. No one asks for names anymore, what's the point? That was something interesting I found about Edmond. He didnt have one; he didnt want one. For me the comm allowed contact between him and I. He owned a large, old-age computer that allowed him to talk to me through a text based thought program.

I would stay up all night talking to him on the comm, watching the text appear behind my eyes and responding with similar thoughts. We talked about everything, and nothing. It was the funnest time I'd ever had. Going to school eventually became a fun concept to me, I would see him in the morning, at lunch break, and after school. He wanted to talk to me. He told me all about his story that he was writing, and asking me to sketch his characters out for him, which I did. He was quite pleased with them.

I decided to bring up the subject again. The subject that we had said to forget. I asked him if he felt the same way...

He said yes. I gave him a big hug and then walked away, the biggest smile in the world was plastered on my face. I guess sometimes bravery pays off, even though I had been stupid enough to start a relationship over the summer. Everyone seems to tell me that summer relationships end when summer ends. I hope and pray that isn't the case with Edmond and I, because our relationship is something special.